More good news for me! Down another three pounds on this weigh in and now I'm 195! Small victories are great, but I'm working towards my next milestone at 180. From there it's 30 lbs to goal. 45 lbs is no small feat, but I can do it. I'm getting stronger, more confident and my diet is not punishing me. I am so glad to be on right track and know what to realistically expect. According to the app, at the rate I'm going, I can see my goal between September and November. It sounds so far away, but after five months of struggling so far, I'm know it is a trial. The hardest part is over, getting used to working through the pain and unused muscle. Now it's about dedication and motivation. I have found what works and even through discouraging times, I've kept going. I hope I can inspire even one other person to keep going. Be the best you that you can be inside and out. Health is the most important thing we have in life, never take it for granted.
Fibromyalgia and mental illness really threw me for a loop. I don't expect people to really get what it's like, but know that even treated, they are always a problem. I could do 500 crunches a day before I got sick and after that I could barely sit up in bed. I was the lightest weight and in great shape, 135 lbs and between meds that made me a zombie and the pain of movement, for the first time in my life I was not just overweight but obese. The stretch marks from the sudden weight gain were so dark purple that water in the shower stung them. I couldn't be touched and I couldn't look at myself. I still found happiness, don't get me wrong. I'm an artist so I took comfort in crafting and drawing and reading and writing but I didn't recognize what I saw in the mirror. It took years of learning how to manage the pain and anxiety without medication and once I figured that out, I decided the weight had to go too.
I won't lie, I want that banging beach body back, but even more than that, I want to be the healthiest I can be, even with conditions that make that harder. High impact is out of the question but rapid weight loss is just as bad for you as rapid weight gain. In order to really be healthy it takes patience and trial by fire. I know I can do this, and I swear I won't get discouraged by plateaus. They are just telling me that something needs to change not that I can't reach my very reasonable goal.
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