Shapes are complex

As I build strength (and baby my volatile joints while I do) I can't help but feel that along the way, I might have been ignoring other big factors in weight loss.  For one, I can not wait until the boys go back to school on the 15th!  Having them around all day has been a real test on my nerves and hell on sleep.  I'll be glad to start walking them to and from school again.  I think we're all happier when we're not up each other's asses all day too.

And damn, but I can't wait to dedicate myself more fully to writing my books and illustrating again!  I've been dabbling at them all summer but at a real snail's crawl.  I realize that my weight loss completely came to a halt when I lost the joy and me time I had in doing things.  I've made plans to get my temps this week and learn how to drive.  I have this game plan to move to Vancouver and we all know that I'm not the only American who would like to execute an exit-stage-left if Trump actually cons his way in to the presidency.  No, I don't like Hilary either.  I've been pulling for third parties for nearly 16 years and I'm waiting for people to get with the times.  After all, it's the current year...  No, my plans are not centered around politics-- I've actually been mulling this over for the past couple years since I earned my degrees and I want to move to somewhere happier and more prosperous.  Believe me, my "love it or leave it" friends have debated my desire to leave for longer than that and they are welcome to keep wasting their breath.  I'll make them a papier mache decoy of me to continue the debate with while I'm gone.

It's not an easy decision.  I would have to leave my nephews here and try my damnedest to get set up, get their paperwork together and get hem moved up there.  As much as they drive me nuts now, I'm like any other person who becomes a real parent-- being away from them will be painful.  However, I need to get them somewhere where the biggest issues aren't all black/white and who is more oppressed.  They need to see the whole world isn't trying to hate the white men they will become.  They need a place where people aren't so jaded and still trying to convince the world they are free.  you know you're in trouble when milennials are setting out to create safe spaces in colleges and repeal first amendments rights because feelings.

So yeah, I'm always rattling off a sterile list of frustrations and milestones, but underneath it, I'm a people.  I want to keep being better at it and that means finding the place that makes me happiest rather than taking advice from people invested in their own happiness.  Trying to lose weight will happen again once I can find my groove.  It will start to melt away again.  I just have to accept that my shape is always going to be complex.